Trauma Letters Online Anthology: Border Crossing by Andrea Lambert

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Border Crossing

I was born in Los Angeles.

November 2018. The sky is white. My skin is brown. The air dips below freezing at night. I carry my passport and birth certificate in my purse. In case I must prove citizenship. There are checkpoints all over Reno. Those who cannot show the right paperwork in time? Caged.

The only stamp on my passport is a honeymoon in Tulum. 

2005. Despite immaculate paperwork, a Border Guard in Tijuana refuses my return crossing to the United States. With my parents. After attending my father’s friend’s baby shower. In a black velvet floral party dress. Red lipstick. Heels. California summer tan. 

The Guard thinks I am a Mexican prostitute this swinging baby boomer couple picked up for a threesome. Preferring poly fun in their own waterbed stateside. Counterfeit passport for the whore. Fear eclipses multiple levels of ick in lizard brain.

I speak very fast. In unaccented English. Give exact dates and locations for my birth and education. My words spill like water. 

I am a woman of ambiguous heritage. Mixed race. Whether I’m white depends on who you’re talking to.

My words mean nothing to the Border Guard. He does not believe that this plump pink man could possibly be my father. Believes him to be simply a John. 
	
The Guard asks me my father’s birth date. I understand how tenuous my position to white America in stark blazing lights.

“January,” I say. So I can go home. 
Land of the free, my ass.

Fevers of the Mind Quick-9 Interview with Andrea Lambert

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Fevers of the Mind Quick-9 Interview with Andrea Lambert

Twitter Bio: Author of Neon-Hysteric, Jet Set Desolate and other books. Queer Artist. Schizoaffective. Witch. Widow. Divorcee. Long COVID slowed me down, but. She/Her

Q1: When did you start writing and first influences?

Andrea: I don’t remember beginning to write, my first memory is writing a flower part name on a workshop in a Montessori preschool. I learned how to read at age 3. In elementary school I made up stories and wrote them in composition notebooks. Early influences are Anne Rice and V.C. Andrews (tween reading material)

Q2: Who is your biggest influence today?

Andrea: My biggest influence today is William Gibson.

Q3: Where did you grow up and how did that influence your writing/art?

Andrea: I grew up in San Diego, so the ocean, being of Mexican ancestry and the proximity of Mexico were early influences. My first and only high school boyfriend taught me how to classically oil paint from the human figure.

Q4: Have any travels away from home influenced you work/describe?

Andrea: I don’t travel much due to disabilities, but trips with an L.A. boyfriend to Palm Springs appear repeatedly in my ebook romance novel “Hollywood Hedgewitch” That was a lot of fun.

Q5: Any pivotal moment when you knew you wanted to be an artist/poet/writer?

Andrea: I feel like I’ve always wanted to be a writer and an artist. That pivotal moment must have happened before my childhood memories go.

Q6: Favorite activities to relax?

Andrea: When i’m not writing, I enjoy Horror television and video games. Also cat appreciation and witchcraft.

Q7: Any recent or forthcoming projects you’d like to promote?

Andrea: Just this month I released a new kindle ebook called “Dining with a Cursed Bloodline”, which is a collection of the essays I wrote during that columns 4 years at Entropy magazine. It’s 0.99 cents, check it out!

Q8: What is one of your favorite lines in your poetry, writing? Favorite artist or art pieces?

Andrea: Favorite lines from my work? “I accept what is, because I must, “Boredom is the luxury of no longer being in pain, “I am only electrified meat travelling through time.” My favorite painter is Gustave Moreau esp his work with Salome.

Gustave Moreau Paintings, Bio, Ideas | TheArtStory

Q9: Who has helped you most with your writing/art?

Andrea: The CalArts MFA writing program has helped in most of my writing.

Links to find Andrea’s work:

https://andreaklambert.com/





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