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Tincture of Opium by David L O’Nan
A saddle strapped and swallow down the tincture. Assimilation over these years worth of crashes to curves of corners. It is much heavier than before It is much heavier than before I begin to resemble a caricature of a zombie- drawn by the superficial you. Under a slightly warm night sky, barely alive I was dreaming of you dancing on unbroken bottles. Then again, they break again, and you're always surprised. Much heavier than before is the cutting Much heavier than before is the failing I watch you fainting out a smile while bleeding away onto the floor. I watch you believing in which heaven you have restored for this day. The evolution of the tincture. What is willing and what is wading You’ve tried to prove yourself almighty. But It is much heavier than before It is much much more heavier than before Wishing I was inside that mind with you. Poems about Elliott from Afta Gley Untitled hillbasement musician, from your soughtfor transition, your oblivion ambition, may you never, never land October 21, 2022 dear Mr. Smith, twelve years ago I was too sad to go to work, but decided to work through the depression. there by the Dumpster: a cat. who knows? maybe you guided your namesake to me. so very grateful TWO FROM FOUR DAYS AGO lighting a candle for 34 minutes, youre missing Elliott nineteen years ago I knew everything else meant nothing to me Elliott Smith waltzed with his metaphors, partnered by no one at all
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SO UGLY BEFORE by Lynn Elliott
A great man once proclaimed He was damaged bad at best In my heart of hearts To know him I feel blessed There was beauty, truth and honor In his troubled soul People clammered just to touch him and it took it's toll I see him in the morning As the sky is turning blue I feel him in the stillest night Sometimes as if on cue I mourn his loss quite often Celebrate him even more For bringing out the beauty In what was so ugly before. XO. Lynn Elliott Unknown name poem by Lynn Elliott It's so easy living in the past Sleep walking through each day Living where I saw you last Pretending I'm okay XO Lynn Elliott My Elliott Smith story is a little different I broke my neck and suffered a traumatic brain injury water skiing. For 5 yrs I was pretty much a zombie. The only thing I could feel was fear. I'm not a fearful person at all but that's how all tbi ppl feel I was listening to everything's OK by Elliott and it made me feel safe. It was the beginning of my recovery. I listened to Elliott almost every hour of every day. It inspired me to start writing songs and poetry, which really sped up my recovery even more. I'll never be like I was before but my injury stimulated my drive to write and share what I write. So I was in my 50s when I started. My bio I rescue special needs dogs. I did extreme sports most of my life. Surfing, skiing. diving, soccer, tennis, gymnastics, etc. I worked for the airlines so I did a fair amount of traveling. I'm an outdoorsy person. Elliott Smith is more than a great musician to me. He is my safe place.
Ripples by Khadeja Ali
inspired by ‘Everything Means Nothing to Me”
days start and end in blank white and solid black shapes that will not harmonize rigidly exist in my eyes when finally touching, the sharp lipped edges cut and me, wanting so badly for lines blurring, insides blending But there is no chance of grey. No body electricity to make it work. was I once a kaleidoscope of magnetic color shuddering with vibrating life, dancing constantly? I think so if not singing, was I humming to natural silence? now is there a piercing screech in my ear, or nothing No ears-plugging or opening my mouth anymore. Frozen. lying down is not an option; when did I start standing? since when can I not move? This is not me. Is it? walking I was but stiffly erect and standing at once. When started my movement’s death? my mind’s edges are so sharp, but inside empty as air Squinting hard. There’s nothing to see. my energy; drained by a taunting echo of everything wavering glass below me reflects my iron face So glorious am I, yet—I’m nothing to me.
“Junkyard Full of False Starts” by Jennifer Patino
I'll refrain from the 'gone too soon' sentiments Instead, I'll boast of your intellect There's a way back to blue & to you, but we couldn't remind you in time & wasn't that you, that one time, pounding your chest like a barbarian? You couldn't speak truthfully to people without scaring them I know, I know, I know, the burdens you tore from your aching shoulders I know, I know, I know how terrified you were of even the vague idea of growing older You were only one, ever one, little inside, unnamed, but mighty Someone we'll think of while staring at flames, hearing your phantom drunken crooning on repeat, when we're tired of fighting, or just tired of the taste of the city streets where your ghost lingers on beneath neon lights & in the silhouette soul of every ragged musician in a beanie we happen to meet I'll say it, I'll pray it, RIP
Little Mr. Socialite by David L O’Nan
We’ve all been strapped to and strapped by the spellbinder He walks up to you and expects you to drop the ceiling down to become his platform for a show. Handed the keys, by osmosis you become a local legend. To the city that continues to decay, there is only so much here to reel in. The cocaine socialites keep barking for you to leave their hipster colonies. Fuck you! Fuck You! Fuck You! You can’t talk sense to the overconfident. They want the world, and they want the life. They want the respect, Rifles and knives. They want to joke and manifest a spiritual world in which they are absorbed of their behavior. Hell to the homeless, hell to the mental health “I don’t care about your personal lives” I care about my termination. Your words will never get past these windows because I’ll just run out And bark out orders like a witch in a bad dream. Blah…blah…blah Fuck You! Fuck You! Fuck You! You can’t talk about our prince and princesses That push the drugs and sex behind bars and counters that blow up this neighborhood. You will vanish as soon as you appear. Hours later you’re in another chessgame. You’re in another straight line socialite walk. From one blink to the next you’re game changes. Drawn to your fuckin’ pawn. He is in charge of our children. Teach them well. Teach that future well. Afraid of a soured reputation. Bullying has never left your privileged brain. And your story will never be told as long as the socialite holds the powder and the power. Roman Candles by David L O'Nan I’m feeling tricked in this cold October rain The entire town are shooting Roman Candles in masses Hypnotized in another wired dream. Nauseated and feeling blind, worthless The rain burns the cuts on the skin. The friction drowns me with the idiots. I’ve never felt this tired. I’ve never heard this much screaming. The Roman Candles, Firecrackers, the Halloween monsters. The shoes are beginning to sour. The red just keeps getting darker, yet feeling thinner The slitting and sitting with the rattle again Have I ever been real? The Kill of the Darlings by David L O'Nan Another abused evening. Copper skied and bloodshot eyes. The kill of the darlings reads on a flashing screen. I was introduced to the spilling and polishing of my sweat to the sheets. It must be raining, raining in my death. I’ve been waiting, smelly and divided On a pitch black night with coal mine moons. I’ve been asked inside to feed the tiger. The locomotives keep moving slower through the brain, through the cast. Through the fade, they praise the ugliest ghost after all. Becoming so angry by medicine and shiver out new fears. I wait and wait and wait. Just knowing you have his name tattooed in your blood. I wait for you on the inlay filling of broken sidewalks that have survived the earthquake. I wait for you to come home with him. To bust him with this chain or break a bottle over his skull. Yet, I should realize you’ve the not caring if I ever lived or died. Adaptation, realization and broken, a crinkled tarot card. I’ve been calling another busy signal suicide hotline. Winnemucca by David L O'Nan Days of being dazed, drugged, and dangerous Now in Winnemucca waiting for a new train. To rescue me from the lights of the cities to the deserts to thaw. Not feeling the jazzy hope that all these horns convey. I’ve been travelling like it is a system wondering If the honey was ever laced, were your smiles ever more than pain. You played beautifully being beautiful and being muddled at the same time. You played beautifully being heartbroken and wearing a new ring from another lame maniac. Wafflin’ drunk on something, traintracks shaking. Winnemucca gives me the eye of some crook. I’m asking for tickets, asking for wishes, I’m asking for some powerful graveyard dirt. I’m washing my hands of you since yours are covered in the outlines of sweat from the burns. You’ve been a cough, to send away the clouds You’ve been a leap, through the meek and the lack of sound. You’ve been admired, but admiration wasn’t enough. You’ve been dashing, dashing straight into the wreck. And I will fall and eventually so will you. I may fall sooner, but tomorrow is a full moon. I could still be in Winnemucca, I could be dead, or banging on pots in the streets of Chicago. You could still be married to the errors, you could be flooded out of house and home. Digesting more fertile dirt. Catharsis (collaboration poem K Weber & David L O'Nan) also part of the Empath Dies in the End series 1. (David L O'Nan) I was in the process of purging the ideas of you The wrens, the beetles, and the crabs we’ve been energized by On days of smiles. The parks, the oceans, the imperfect apartment ceilings. In the middle of a catharsis I was fast to the falling down the mountainous zoo. In the deluge of rain I remember smashing against your dress. Umbrellas breaking, wind straining, yet in the distance we see a sunset. Now I’m wondering are you ever really leaving me? Will we meet again in this organic hex that has been swirling From the ground to the trees. To the shearing of my humility, my impulses are pulling with each inhalation. With palms on head, a robin stares at me from the ground. Right against my boot it seems not fear my 50 foot shadow. Just searching for some worms through the puddles we reflect in. 2. (K Weber) Winged leaves breathe Between fingers of ashen Branches where birds’ songs rest. The pulse of a rain-tapped dusk counts down the last snippet of sun. Light gets drowsy as windows on one wall yawn to a close. Red Ant. Black Ant....The Stars (collaboration poem with Jennifer Patino and David L O'Nan 1. (Jennifer Patino) They spoke of interior silence. A way to navigate cacophony with a smile on your face. These forced emotions, pulled to the surface, daisies squeezed out from beneath the grime of disconnect. One has to die to hear advice better. A portion of the self must be sacrificed to allow change to claim new roots. I think I'll bloom in winter. Switch the expected at the last moment so the patient ones can be satisfied. Those drought souls have waited for a resurrection long enough. They will have their day safe from the blinding sun. They will feel rain on new skin and be quenched. 2. (David L O'Nan) I’ve been searching for your footprints all over the place. The joke is only red ants meeting black ants on my shoelaces. I’m disgusted I can’t past this place. Scared to walk out to new noise. I’ve feigned happiness and I’ve dreamt up new stars. I’ve been alone and hid my aches away. The nightmares absorb in the pillows, as long as I stay hid. In the shade. I got to my tree. And I try to remember the invisible me. I know you’ve been waiting for me to at least show a hello I can’t keep the creatures inside and the rush becomes a roar And the hush becomes hypnotic and my window becomes the source for the entertaining eye. So go on, and move on with what you want. The devil is dancing and waiting for your soul. You know you want love, but this will just be another gaslighting poem. The lake, the flowers, the light. Go the distance and find what’s right. I met you in a trance. I was scrawny and I was a mess. I thought I was becoming famous. And you thought you’d be the root. I would grow from you and learn to be a jolly shine under your foot. It’s a shame I only can understand what is anger, snark and shame. If I could cure myself, I would try to shave away your pain. The scene won’t have any of it. The Dark Aesthetic/Wives in the White Light by Jess Levens and David L O'Nan 1. (Jess Levens) The sky is quintessential October— wet without rain; dusk in daylight, blurring any distant thing. Blurring what is real. Desaturated evergreens birth out dead leaves in every citrus shade, plus plum and pear and red delicious. They clatter down, loudly in the quiet fog. The chill bites flirtatiously, without pain. Outside my window, a lone coywolf in the farmer’s clearing stares back at me through this dark aesthetic—howling into my home; into my head—barking out malice. 2 (David L O'Nan) So you keep your wives in the White Light And the mass is enchanted that you bring The entertainment and the insanity from the mistakes. Like paper we’ll fly with the crisping leaves. Some cut just like that paper, some just itch as the wind bites down on the skin. The wives you hide in white light Scurry like a squirrel trying to hide a direct hit. From grey to brown to orange to green trees- that squirrels will scurry from the pain. So slip outside of your skin, Watch yourself in the mirror with another angry grin. Revenge glowing in your eye. And the harm you want is the harm that’ll cause you to die. There are wires just falling everywhere…the storms are brewing And the we all become impaired. Hiding your wives in the white light behind the shed. Are they in blinking blue and red lights ripe for the restoration. They are just waiting for you to fall asleep and give up, in your irate dream. Continue to pour yourself that drink. Continue to pour yourself that wolf’s howl. Continue to transition from the rake to the shave. Repair is on the way. But the bedpans and the creatures inside may be the cream, and your body may just be the trough. The Wives in white light are just looking for you to break. The narcissism will eventually implode And the darkness will be decorous with light as they take you aside.
(c) Dribble from DeviantArt
Bled Out For Liberty (collaboration poem Giulio Magrini & David L O’Nan
1 (Giulio Magrini)
The younger ones look at us and smirk… We remember the smiling of our youth Furtive… covert… and shrouded Those memoirs are today’s mystery of youth And live behind the curtains of our past They are cognitions divorced in time but parallel confidence What is the necessity of covert masks in the present And our frustrated guilty memories? 2 (David L O'Nan) I've began to feel afraid. that i've bled out for liberty from my imagination- that was never brave. The loveliness just disappears. Morning whispers engulfed in last night's tears. I was concentrating too much on the lies. Assuming everything from youth to existing was from the failing eye. We were watched down on by the lighted figures. Not wasted anymore yet cultivate me with all my failures until I die. You're private and play hide away. You're intellectual and passing around the plate Damn, i'm still living slender with my fist taped up. Everything from midnight to morning is just medicine just passing through. I go from I love you to i'm sorry i've been holy for you. Maybe my mind has bled out only lies. And my exit is the last leaf on the tree trying to cover up his face. https://feversofthemind.com/2022/10/22/current-bio-for-fevers-of-the-minds-david-l-onan-editor-writing-contributor-to-blog/ https://feversofthemind.com/2022/07/13/a-poetry-showcase-from-giulio-magrini/ https://feversofthemind.com/2022/09/14/a-fevers-of-the-mind-quick-9-interview-with-giulio-magrini/ https://feversofthemind.com/2022/09/12/2-wonderful-poems-by-jennifer-patino-inspired-by-plath-and-sexton/ https://feversofthemind.com/2022/09/07/a-poetry-showcase-from-jess-levens/ https://feversofthemind.com/2022/09/30/a-fevers-of-the-mind-quick-9-interview-with-jess-levens/ https://feversofthemind.com/2022/05/25/poetry-showcase-from-k-weber/
This is fantastic! I’m so happy to be a part of it.
Thank you…I included yours and the collaboration poem for “The Empath Dies in the End” series
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…yay for special needs dog rescue…
So happy and grateful to be a part of this compilation of talented artists. Congratulations David O’Nan for making this happen.