What makes you think I love the same way back when I loved you? when you always had me thinking- oh no, what did I do? Going over and over everything again in my mind until I got so mixed up finally I just gave up Things were only working when I was apologizing how come I didn’t see that then? And what exactly makes you think I love like I loved back then? My soul was such a wreck heart-break was a safe bet crying in my sleep wasn’t enough to you I had to die in my dreams every night for you You had to bury me so damn deep the sad part was that I let you And when I clawed myself out of my grave the maddest part was that I didn’t regret you They say it takes a diamond a thousand years to shine but I look inside myself and I know I don’t have that kind of time And from now on, my window may be closed but don’t think I ever lock it Bio: Christian Garduno’s work can be read in over 100 literary magazines. He’s the recipient of the 2019 national Willie Morris Award for Southern Poetry, a Finalist in the 2020-2021 Tennessee Williams & New Orleans Writing Contest, and a Finalist in the 2021 Julia Darling Memorial Poetry Prize. He lives and writes along the South Texas coast with his wonderful wife Nahemie and young son Dylan.