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Poem by Theresa Haffner: Reality Doctor
Sometimes the truth is hard to find. It can be
like a continent that you are already standing
on so it is everywhere.
Or conversely, it can be like Antarctica. A place
you can point to on a map but have no personal
experience of to either prove or disprove its existence.
For many people the truth must remain forever
hidden, and unknown, so suppressed and repressed
they don’t even know that it is missing.
Fortunately there are clues, hints, traces.
Vestiges, methods, processes,.
some suggested by Allen Ginsberg, William
Burroughs, and others, brave pioneers in the
exploration of human consciousness, for whom
the pursuit of truth became a lifelong
Free association. stream of consciousness,
random interaction, chance and probability,
double entendre, meaningful coincidence
(synchronicity), ambiguity, mistaken identity
Reverie, certain types of meditation,
sense deprivation, dream interpretation
Letters to yourself..
Burroughs and Ginsberg also used drugs.
Let me stress this is absolutely not necessary.
The dangers of shooting heroin would
probably far outweigh any benefits to be
gained from it. However, where it is legal,
modest use of cannabis may be permissible.
Some things are psychic energizers. Certain
geometric diagrams, names of ancient gods
and goddesses. Astrological and alchemical symbolism
Modern jazz music.
Threads of meaning.
Twist them into a filament.
Braid them into a cord,
A rope, a lifeline,
A means of inquiry
Into the unknown truth.
Allen Ginsberg, in an article for Writers Digest,
‘what way i write’, says he never thinks about
what he is going to write beforehand. Instead
he lets his mind go blank, then picks up a pencil
and lets his hand scrawl a couple words on its own.
Then before he realizes it he is writing about what
he was supposed to be writing about all along.
He also says, having written a page, he tears it into
four parts, rearranges them, tapes them back together,
Then reads the ‘new’ document to see what he was
really writing about.
look into a glass of water
An empty mirror
Listen to the silence of an empty room.
Look into the shadows
Interpret the meaning
of the whisper of the wind.
The water pipes
The furnace vents,
The washer, the dryer.
The oscillating of
A circulation fan.
Only when you defeat
Can you engage
Enjoy the moment.
It can be your first
Intimation of the truth
You have been looking for.
A realization of the
Continent you are standing on.
It will not be perfect
but it’s a start.
If repeated it can become
the keys and pathways
of the soul.
A means to climb out of the box
that has imprisoned you
That has been suffocating you
When you take a breath you will
Become like a fish in water
And breathing will be like
For instead of nothingness
there will be the
meaning of life in the universe.
Never again will you be forced
to look at an ink blot
and see only spilled ink
Therefore take a prescription
from this Reality Doctor
To engage the subconscious.
Two hours a day appreciation of
Abstract Expressionist painting
Particularly Jackson Pollock,
Willem De Kooning, Clyfford Still.
Two hours a day
Modern jazz music, particularly
Miles Davis, John Coltrane,
One hour a day
In two weeks double the dose
and thereafter readminister as needed
to make sure the subconscious
is functioning normally.
You may want to supplement with Aleister Crowley,
Arthur Rimbaud, the cut-up trilogy of William Burroughs
(The Soft Machine, Nova Express, TheTicket That Exploded)
I Ching, Kabbalah, Lao Tze, mandala, mantra, tantra, yantra
All of these things should be practiced periodically
as an antidote for whatever fears and insecurities caused you to
devalue and repress the subconscious in the first place.
The subconscious is a naturally occurring part of the human consciousness. In this highly mechanized, digital environment,
without the irrational, the merely rational can be a very lonely
place to exist.
Now in her seventh decade, Theresa Haffner was raised in Michigan but moved to California at age twenty one, first to San Francisco, then to Los Angeles to pursue a career in professional music. She is transgender, male to female, having made the transition in 1972. She began writing while still a teenager. She has been a force in L.A. poetry since the early 1980's when she gave a reading of her concrete poetry at the Water Gallery in Hollywood. Also known as an editor/publisher, she edited THREADBARE LITERARY JOURNAL, In collaboration with Albert Crane. AFTERSHOCK MAGAZINE with David Behrens (Bill Bored), and was regional editor for THE NEW PRESS, a literary journal published in Flushing, New York and distributed nationally.
To her credit, she has one novel, MACARTHUR PARK CHRONICLES, (denotes available through Literary Download Center) several books of poetry including ACHERON AND OTHER POEMS, DIFFERENT DRUM, THE LAST POETRY BOOK, THE CASE FOR WISDOM AT 5:00 A.M., SURFACE OF THE LAND, a novella BLACK STAR a coffee table book, ABSTRACT EXPRESSIONISM (THE NEW YORK SCHOOL) (In preparation), and various other paper booklets and pamphlets.
As part of her effort to stimulate interest in original literature at the community level, she periodically makes available POETRY SAMPLERS selected from her copious archives of unpublished poetry. Several are available.
Her poetry is archived at www.poemhunter.com
For many years she worked as a professional musician, playing with an impressive array of famous and infamous people. Her music can be heard on Youtube at the Theresa Haffner Channel.
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