Some poems from Elisabeth Horan in Fevers of the Mind Issue 1 (2019)

Egg, Eggs, Robin, Robin'S Eggs
Robin's Egg Blue

Soft bird loves night light
gowns her body and walks the last cerulean mile
flies in her mind ---a
misery broken wing trails

Along like ramparts fizzling Hitler's last
stand. What a bunker. What a braun. What a

Petty woman's war. Or stronghold---Had
she had a birdie
To release---did
she wish for a pop-out screen or a
Female Parliament to impeach; did
she know what I know

Her daddy was her
lover; did she know of the fetus which doth
smother a new mother?

Daughter turns - burns.
Small broken bird falls to asphalt
out jail window

So softly as the morning eats children---

Troubled Water

like a bridge below me
out into    the world

strident arch for once
your back  - not mine
deep into the soul/self

and the river rages under skin
hide in the vivid moon

- veins like sticks - caught -
snagged    on milk river

and they wonder why fish give in
to a hook and lure


my lip swollen - sags -
so many punctures
so many timeless reeled in and in

streams of black
             and crimson strokes

i am not dead
but i am not swimming

ECT or You Loving ME  - Vol 2

Shock treatment is for me
bridge programs

so, so, easy --- the walk
down the hall

the IV; the vomiting;
the need of a driver at 2 pm

and some deeply tinted
Jackie O glasses

the other option ---

trenchcoat, I could get into
it's muster; I could swear myself

over to you -
Chief, and you could throw
the sink

out of the window -
rip its pipes up from the linoleum ---

and i could not chew the gum
and i could

not let them cut me open ---near or on the location of my deformity:
at the temple

& icould

not let them win
not let them win they
did before
when i was young. When I was

What's Eating Gilbert Grape's Mom

Heartbroken; shattered plates
aren't coming together; swelling
makes muscle plump on bone
pooling hematoma prickly blue
bruising like a comical formula

For damaged tissue, neurologic
palsy, and bloody mess elevators
arrange the bandage as a diaper
to hold the fester a little longer

In this dillapate house caving down
upon my head, my body, throbbing
with death - no chair helps me tagalong
green lawn, green lawn, before the oak
commences burning, plays dead

Smells smoke, and crackle fawn
succumbs to the obese splinter -
white wash monster consumated
her pyre comes together - over; over

Ropes Have No Idea Their Impact 

I went away,
Cycled and spiraled and all that shit -
i went to the place
where you know about the
dirt floor
I saw you bent over
scratching at your eyes
once before -
I laid there
a virgin to the Ward's fuckin' power

& there was boy dangling in the corner
& there was you and me -

holding out one E.T. finger
touching each other
as if it would shock
the little white pills
right out of our mouths
I wanted to kiss you
Some might think that is
weird deranged
inappropriate -
who cares - no one is watching
me smoke all these cigarettes
dreaming of the time you let me
give you a foot rub with my cocoa
butter lotion.  I was a dying lamb ---
So, yeah, I went away again
I'm trying to get back to you
I know you're still in the membranes
waiting and watching in the brain cogs
the meds don't regurgitate
the brownie doesn't react to
the laxative - the demons
giggle - so excruciating in my
spine - they want to suck
me - marrow & saliva
the boy still dangling in the corner
I cut him down ---over and over
I swaddle and kiss --- over and over
give him a foot rub with cocoa butter
I make him mine---each day. Because
I never seem to get better. 

Bio: Elisabeth Horan is a poet, mother, and small press publisher living in the wilds of Vermont. She is the author of numerous poetry chapbooks and collections, and the Editor-In-Chief of Animal Heart Press. Elisabeth is passionate about discovering new voices and mentoring emerging poets. She is also a fierce advocate for those impacted by mental illness. (from her website

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