Poems by Rachael Ikins

Crow On A Fence, Farm, Corvid

Under Cover of Darkness

A crow
flying under cover
of darkness, south wind.
Blue satin memories of you.

Whispers in the window
of the room
where I sleep.
My eyes open.
Not trying to remember nor
wanting to forget;
you are just

here. My desire to speak
claws my throat,
need-sweat leaks
from every pore. Wide awake,
no dream. Another night
numb with wanting
you.
 
A Marination of my Brain/Adverse Reaction/Side Effects

Screaming 
empty head.
Inside,
voices calling,
entreating life-or-death

Mesmerized,
traffic sounds and clock-
ticks, my throat sticks
shut:

I am so tired
There is no synapse strong
(long) enough to bridge
the void from my ears
to my tongue.

I cannot speak: in a haze
of lazy desperation
my eyes roll sideways
my ears lean toward nonsense
noise.

I drift slowly.
Away, receding, diminishing
in a cloud the sound of bitter
car exhaust
Even as we watch
me swallow.

Counting the Days

I collected first fallen red leaves
for my mother when she was in rehab. Married three times, always to an alcoholic, it wasn't until her doctor staged an intervention that she admitted she was.  Too late, Pancreatic cancer spread to her liver.

Early fallen red leaves, like these,
and her blood on pavement, after all the cocktail hours her last husband, who was blind, knocked her down. Why was she always the one who lost months in rehabs for broken bones, never him?

These first fallen red leaves under a sugar maple near my house, an alien friend, whose bark I touch every time we pass, whisper.
How my mother would've lived later years if she hadn't married every man she dated.

My  uncle says she was afraid to be alone. After her second husband died, she found temporary balance, worked at a small-town library, walked to work with a bag lunch, relishing the embrace, fragrance of books and independence.

These fallen red leaves, pages of the year 2020's story, a year she never saw; when a plague struck, Black men and women were murdered, uprisings, peaceful protests in the streets of cities a president will try to punish by cheating, the election year two civil rights icons died. Our democracy may follow: a dusty grave pounded by boots of maskless masses who follow a madman desperate to stay out of prison.

Sun crisps leaves.
They flutter away on drought winds, worried at possibility - smouldering cigarette tossed from a car window. My mother, five years gone at ninety, needs no protection from the present. She quit smoking when she was 65.

My Mother's Bones

Her skull a restless ache
beneath my skin, my lips and tension hers.

My feet emerge
onto my grandmother's path. Calloused,
purplish spiders spinning
aged silk, weave a story of
a life lived.

My mother's hands float beneath
my fingers, that deformed right thumbnail,
while left pinky quirks for my dad.

How is it my ancestors rise?
So soon? Night falls
So soon? Dawn blinked
luscious lashes
minutes ago.


Bio: Rachael Ikins is a 2016/18 Pushcart, 2013/18 CNY Book Award, 2018 Independent Book Award winner, & 2019/2020 Vinnie Ream & Faulkner poetry finalist.  She is a Syracuse University graduate and author/illustrator of nine books in multiple genres. Her writing and artwork have appeared in journals world wide from India, UK, Japan, Canada and US. Born in the Fingerlakes she lives by a river with her dogs, cats, salt water fish, a garden that feeds her through winter and riotous houseplants with a room of their own. Frogs found their way to her fountain. Dragons fly by.

Rachael Z. Ikins Voice for the Voiceless
Associate Editor Clare Songbirds Publishing House, Auburn NYhttps://www.claresongbirdspub.com/shop/featured-authors/rachael-ikins/2020 NLAPW Biennial Letters Competition 3rd prize Childrens category2019 Faulkner Finalist2019-20 Vinnie Ream semi-finalist2018 Independent Book Award winner (poetry)2013, 2018 CNY Book Award nominee2016, 2018 Pushcart nomineeWww.writerraebeth.wordpress.comhttps://m.facebook.com/RachaelIkinsPoetryandBooks/@poetreeinmoshun on Instagram@writerraebeth on Tumblr@nestl493 on Twitter



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