You’re Always There (c) Linda Crate from Fevers of the Mind Poetry Digest Issue 3

You’re Always There © Linda Crate


when i remember home

it is inevitable

that i remember you

i wish sometimes

the rain could wash away

past memories,

but you are in my recollection;

in my bones

haunting me over and over—

when will it ever be

enough for you?

you hunger for something

that was never yours,

and i told you no;

but you tried to take it anyway—

then at college,

when i was finally loosening my petals,

beginning to feel safe

you found me;

“i bet you don’t remember me”, you grinned

all i could do was stare like a doe

caught in the headlights

of a vehicle

gutted by a ruthless hunter

hungry for blood

no matter the cost—

why couldn’t you leave me alone?

the forced kisses i insisted

you didn’t take,

the attempted rape;

now when someone tells me

i have a pretty smile it’s a trigger

and you are shooting over me

over and over again

until all i want to do is crawl

into the bones of a past self so you

cannot torment the current me—

it never works,

you’re always there.


Linda M. Crate’s poetry, short stories, articles, and reviews have been published in a myriad of magazines both online and in print. She has six published chapbooks A Mermaid Crashing Into Dawn (Fowlpox Press – June 2013), Less Than A Man (The Camel Saloon – January 2014), If Tomorrow Never Comes (Scars Publications, August 2016), My Wings Were Made to Fly (Flutter Press, September 2017), splintered with terror (Scars Publications, January 2018), more than bone music (Clare Songbirds Publishing, March 2019), and one micro-chapbook Heaven Instead (Origami Poems Project, May 2018). She is also the author of the novel Phoenix Tears (Czykmate Productions, June 2018).

Follow Linda on twitter @thysilverdoe

Check out her poem out today “I Want to Live” on  @anelephantnever on twitter. 

By davidlonan1

David writes poetry, short stories, and writings that'll make you think or laugh, provoking you to examine images in your mind. To submit poetry, photography, art, please send to Twitter: @davidLOnan1 + @feversof Facebook: DavidLONan1

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